| | Been about half a year now of no FFXI. Having a blast out in the real world (although I still don't know what sort of life/career I'm truly headed towards and for the most part I'm rather okay with that... for now, hahah).
The first few months was really hard. Kept wanting to ask Grissy if I could log onto Tomatopotato and enjoy Vana'diel once more (bless her btw for graciously taking in the little taru). The last couple months though I've become sure that I'm done for good. Besides not having time to play anymore, it's just... a different feeling. It's not that I don't want to play anymore. Hell, I still have a few XI tracks running through WinAmp every once in a while that take me back to some nice memories and set me on the path of wishful thinking... But... not sure how to say it. Hmm.
Well, I'm suddenly reminded of something Tanthalas wrote a while back, equating XI to an ex-gf. I think it's a pretty dead-on statement. You still care a whole lot about her (assuming you don't bear some crazed bitterness towards her), but once you put something into that dusty, but shimmering coffer labelled "The Past," it's hard to find key to re-open it. It's hard to find the desire to even find the key to begin with (damn droprates :P).
Even if you do end up re-opening the box, you sometimes find that either she's changed or you've changed. Except that XI isn't an ex-girlfriend, which makes it that much more hard to come back to I think. Okay, forgive this miserable excuse of an English major for abusing XI metaphors, but you know what I mean, I hope. :)
What I really want to say though, is goodbye. You all have meant more to me than you might think, even those of you I've never spoken with. Hell, thanks (and also {I'm sorry.}) even to those I've been wrong to or been wronged by. I'm grateful for the experiences you've given me.
But most of all, thanks to those of you I've chatted, chilled, smiled, /cry'd, /panic'd, laughed with.
I wish all of you a great time and great success in whatever you do, in and out of the game. And be good to eachother, yeah?
P.S. Message me if you're ever in Taiwan and I'll do my best to get you lost among the stinky tofu and pearl milk tea. :) 歡迎歡迎, 哈哈哈哈哈! ^^ |
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